still taking still taking; time

throw me a couple
of unnumbered days
without a calculus
of minutes
and bells
for every new
venture.
i'm in an abusive relationship
with time.
she's uncovered
my white lies,
fixated on
my fudged
second sticks,
exposed
the lines i blurred.
she beats me
now-
methodically,
with her hands
every night.
my brain gets heavy
flipping the pages,
watching the numbers
fly by
(envisioning with undeniable
hubris
the words, smiles, and furrowed brows
that await [?]
me)
.

DLS